Monday, August 15, 2016

gloomy days in melbourne

hello friends, *sweeps off dust from this page*

sorry i've been mia for quite some time. even though i say this almost every single time i write something new, lol. i guess me and consistent writing, we just don't get along very well. anyway, i traveled recently. i went to melbourne and visited a good of mine there. this trip was a pretty big deal for me. the previous semester has been quite a rough one, so i decided to just travel on a whim. it was my first time travelling solo, and for someone who could barely speak over the phone to the domino's operator- it's a pretty big deal for me. im very blessed to be given the opportunity to travel so often. im aware that not many people get that chance as much as i do, although so many people wish to. alhamdulillah, im forever grateful. travelling makes one more aware of their surroundings. you're exposed to so many new things, new experiences, new cultures, new people. unusual and alien environments that you would never even experience if you didn't step out of your comfort zone. travelling makes you realize how gigantic the world is, and how minuscule you are, in comparison to everything else. you learn that this world doesn't revolve around you, and there is so much more to learn it. so if you're given the opportunity to travel, travel. and make the most of it. explore what is around you, do the things you have never done, and admire the beauty in everything. 

enough of the exaggerated-bombastic-words-you-would-get-from-a-camera-commercial, i put together a mini travel log from my recent trip in snapshot form, hope you enjoy the video :)

gday m8.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

realistic resolutions.

Hello 2016, welcome. Or should i say, thanks for welcoming me into yet another year. I've never really liked the idea of celebrating the new year, i dont know why. I don't like dealing with the overexcitement that consumes people as soon as the clock strikes midnight as if it actually makes a world of a difference. I don't like dealing with the joke the morning after with things like "ive been sleeping since last year" bla bla, seriously people it's getting old. and you're getting old. I don't like having to remember what year it actually is for the first few months. And i don't like dealing with people asking me
"what's your new years resolution"

Because i never really had one. Or maybe i did. But never have i ever achieved any. Like most of us.

But this year however, i think that needs to change. Because i feel pathetic making empty promises to myself and not even being able to fulfil those kinds of commitment. And honestly after long reflecting on this matter, I don't get why I've been avoiding resolutions or accomplishing them. Because thinking back about it, none of my resolutions were even that complicated. I just wanted to study harder or be a better person. Never have I wished to go to Cabo or free climb the twin towers of petronas or whatever. They were all pretty realistic resolutions. I am a sad human being for not having the slightest amount of discipline to accomplish my own promises. And that I would like to change. 

So this year, I have chosen a simple new years resolution to reduce waste. I want to start bringing my own bags everyday to grocery stores, and avoid using tissues or plastic cutleries by bringing my own from home and possibly buy less packaged items. And i will try my best to accomplish this. Hopefully. In sya allah. 

I'll check back with you by the end of the year.

What's your realistic resolution this year? :)

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

bali, indonesia

bali is probably one of those places where you just feel like staying forever because when you're there, everything about that place just takes away all your worries for a while- and when you get back home you start having withdrawals for months. bali was beautiful. 

so frickin' beautiful.

Monday, December 7, 2015

mental health check.

we don't talk about mental health in this country. and that's a problem. 

a lot of people here, don't believe in mental illness. they think that it's something that's been made up, just a state of mind, a way of seeking attention, a personal weakness. people are always associating mental illnesses with being crazy, psychotic, dangerous, violent, asylums, institutions, etc. but believe it or not, mental illnesses are more common than you think. chances are, some of the people you know and love may be affected by it- and you don't even realize.

it goes unnoticed, if you're not paying attention. it's not really something that's tangible. you won't have an increase in temperature, spots won't suddenly appear all over your body, and you won't turn purple when you have it. doctors can't rectify your situation by just placing the back of their palms on your forehead, or by simply asking "where does it hurt". because it actually is a lot more complex than that. sometimes, it will hurt everywhere. it's like a constant dilemma that's occurring inside of your body. one day you will feel completely fine, and the next you will feel like death. there will be days when you feel like your world is starting to crumble right before your eyes, and you will start to nitpick everything thats happening wrong with your life. sometimes, you can't really function in society. and it's not because you don't want to- but because there are days when you feel like everyone is just against you. normal day to day conversations become such a pain in the ass, and socializing is like a death sentence. and to be completely honest, it's not really something you can just "snap out of" nor is it just a "phase". like asthma, or gastroesophageal reflux disease, or even cancer - mental illnesses like ptsd, bipolar, depression and anxiety is also a disease. a psychological one, that affects your mental health on a critical level. and it's about time we start treating it like one. 

start paying attention to your surroundings, and the people around you. care more for people, not just on a physical level- but also on their mental health. don't avoid them, or push them away just because you think they are being "difficult" or "emotional". lend them a helping hand, take them out for walks and fresh air, listen to them when they need support, check on them every once in a while at 2 in the morning - because that's a dangerous time for a lot of people. but above all, just be there for them, and let them know that you are present.

and if you feel like your mental health is affected, here are some little things you can try to do - 
that may help you out ;

  1. fix your relationship with God - just talk to Him, and let Him know what's been bugging you.
  2. accept help from the people that are close to you
  3. focus on the things that you can control, and let go of the things that are beyond your power
  4. remind yourself constantly that it's okay
  5. get sufficient amount of sleep - and even when you can't, just close your eyes
  6. don't oversleep - cause it will probably make you feel worse about yourself
  7. draw your blinds, and let in some sunlight in your room
  8. open the windows, and let in some fresh air
  9. try to get out every once in a while, even if it means just going to the grocery store
  10. declutter your space. make your bed, put away your laundry, and use some air freshener
  11. eat well. make yourself a hearty meal, or go grab a bite to eat at your favourite restaurant
  12. occupy your time with a hobby - sign up for a pottery class, or take up knitting (?)
  13. remove toxic people from your life - and know that it's completely fine to do so
  14. surround yourself with positive people, and positive energy
  15. take a long bath/shower, and give yourself a nice scrub
  16. let it out - talk to someone, write it somewhere or even turn it into a song if you want
  17. reflect on your days, identify the things you are thankful for, and the things that are stressing you out
  18. and do not take yourself so seriously. 

i know it's not much, and I'm not sure how much of a help this post can be for you . But I hope that it does, in any way possible, and i wish you a good day and life ahead. 

p/s : I'm here if you need to talk.